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Pent up thoughts.

Don’t really have the time of the energy to go full out on a post tonight, or even to summarize what I’ve been up to since my previous post. So I’ll let out a few quick quips about whats been going on in my mind the past few weeks. Here goes:

 

1.) Its been fun living and working in Singapore. While it may seem similar to home, (having a vast potpourri of races and cultures, foodie joints, some habits) with time, the truth is, its not. Its almost entirely different. For one, things are really proper here and the people actually abide by rules so strictly placed, that to a Malaysian, you would be dumbfounded at such discipline they have. The public transportation system works like a charm and is dependable to a fault, branded goods are aplenty and there is never an opportunity to not do nothing. Which may be a blessing to many, but to some a curse. Time here moves way faster that it seems, and what would take 15 minutes or less at home, happens in mere moments. Efficiency is without a doubt an accepted and well practiced culture here, but to some degree still maintains a hint of humanity within, though moving with machine like precision and speed, there is some heart in it.

2.) I miss home. Truly I do. There are so many things back at home that I am so used to. There are counterparts available here, but nothing can compare to the original back at home. I am of course referring to the food and my family I miss them like a how a  puppy misses its master when he’s away at work. I wait for opportunities to free up in my work schedule just so I can plan a short trip home, but the management is anything but willing to even consider it. Despite my pleading and polite recommending, the message never seems to hit home, and its only a matter of time before I put my foot down on it. Everyone else in my group has had a return trip, its high time I got mine, and I do not want to wait any longer.

3.) I am out of balance. Not only with myself but with the things around me. Recently, my work performance is illogically terrible. I got overwhelmed and over stressed, tensions rose between me and my colleagues. Work seemed to be nothing more but a dreary trial to endure daily. This attitude fazed me for a moment and I was adamant to get back into my usual routine, accepting and loving my work as well as making the best of what i could do while I was there. But the harder I tried, the worse I seemed to get, leading up to the last stage of defeat, acceptance. Therefore, I only worked for what it was worth and never seemed to see the lighter side of things. I did the most basic of things to be expected of me, and stayed safe. Hopefully by the next month, as I am scheduled to be in another department, things can lighten up and get me back up on my feet.

I am winded and thoroughly defeated inside, and its going to take some serious work to spring myself out of this vortex of disillusionment. Got to keep on moving, and keep on smiling. Life’s a game, so have fun, and bend the rules.

 
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Posted by on August 28, 2011 in Story Of My Life

 

Moving to a whole other country, technically.

Future plans include:

Moving to Singapore this Friday at 8.00am by bus. Will be travelling by FirstCoach, on a 5 hour journey down.

Then check into my temporary lodging for the night when I arrive. Take the weekend to mooch around and get familiar with the places as well as the area I will be working in, Jones the Grocer in Mandarin Gallery and\or Dempsey Hill.

After which I can then meet up with some Uni mates who are also training in Singapore and followed by my parents who will be coming down the following week to pay a visit to Singapore, which according to my dad has been long overdue.

Really looking forward to this internship, as it will be my first time actually going into Singapore.

 
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Posted by on May 24, 2011 in Story Of My Life

 

One ending is another new beginning.

Its over.

From the moment, I put down my very last word and dotted it with a full stop, my time with the trial of Final Examinations have ended. It was quite a rush, not as in excitement, but quite literally a rush, since the paper had us go through 6 individual questions for part A to be answered in full paragraphs, then part B a case study and finally part C which was a summary of our report. And within 10 minutes in the paper I had achieved what may be considered ‘the zone’ of writers. As the words poured out, my hands keep on writing and writing, words in mind travelling as fast as the speed of thought, each sentence crafted right before me by my steady hand. There was no pause for remembering, just doing.

And after that we celebrated. The whole gang of HR 3 gathered at the nearby petrol station in our cars, full of our classmates and friends. As the hour struck 7.30pm, we departed in a convoy of cars, with happy laughing faces and joyful banter all around as we relate our times in Taylor’s University together. The good times and the bad times, the things we all used to do as groups, the lectures we enjoyed\endured, and the fun times we had with each other outside of class. In those moments as we drove towards the party, the memories that flooded our minds, kept us warm and hopeful for our undetermined futures.

At the party, we shared a wonderful dinner, thanks to our lovely host and her family. Her house was beautiful and really set the scene for a wonderful gathering. As each of us arrived, we welcomed and greeted each other warmly and settled down to feat and share our plans. With the flowing of alcohol, we loosened our nerves and laid back to the progressing night. I sadly, had to leave early on account of preparations for my trip down to Singapore. It was rather sad to have to go so soon, but I have a feeling we will all meet again one day, I have faith in that.

BD 30 HR 3 Graduating Class of 2011

Whatever path we choose in life, where ever in the world we end up in, or however we grow in our lives, for one special part in ourselves we have been together and created many amazing memories to treasure forever. I wish all my friends of BD 30 HR 3, the very best in everything and anything you do, and may we cross paths with each other again someday.

 
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Posted by on May 24, 2011 in Story Of My Life

 

Inspiration to do greater things, and to see the bigger picture

Last post I mentioned quite a bit of my current situation, feeling burned out and out of gas from the life I’m currently going through. Put it simply, I’ve got a home stretch to dash through, and my body is willing, but the spirit is already about given up.

Its moments like these that always make me feel angry at myself, because its so obviously saying in my face, that I am not going to make it and I have always been stuck in a vicious cycle, that is to have great determination at the beginning only to tire out and feel like dead weight just before the final countdown. Honestly, its not the end of the world, but it sure does feel like it. Having to drag yourself back up and face the final obstacle takes quite a lot of effort. And effort comes from a strong will and desire to see your dreams come true.

As it turns out, I had forgotten about my dream for so long. Long time ago, when I was much dumber and ignorant, I had the wish to be a pastry chef, a damn good one at that. I had ideas for a business, and had a yearning for all things sweet and artful. Many years have passed since that day, and with newer knowledge and understanding, your view of the world changes as well. Next thing you know, you find yourself waking up everyday, dragging yourself up to a place you don’t want to be, wearing a monkey suit, giving presentations and reports on things you feel never really matters to you and what you stood for.

With each passing day, you feel yourself becoming more and more drained and wasted away. And the next thing you know, you’ve fallen into a dark pit, which you never knew, was being dug by your very own self, and silly you, never thought of bringing a rope ladder.

But enough on the past, no amount of words or complaining is going to help climb out of it. It will only drain your diminishing energy further. Now its time to take a good look at yourself and your position, and figure out what in the world do you plan to do?

That is a question, I have yet to solve, and hopefully one that I will be able to answer soon, as I enter my 22nd birthday this year, my time for mistakes grow lesser and lesser.

Meantime, doing research for a dissertation sometimes unfolds beautiful gems of knowledge amidst the dessert of words and figures. One such as this one:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jIwrV5e6fMY

 

 
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Posted by on April 7, 2011 in Story Of My Life

 

Burned out

Its been a VERY long time since my last post, I know. I’ve totally screwed up on having a consistent posting period. I actually feel bad about this, because blogging is something I really like doing, but time has not been kind to me and it keeps getting used up faster than I can save it.

 

Having so much to do with so little time left, and then working things out with people, having to put in so much effort. It really kills the soul inside me. I thought that the trip to France would have allowed me to settle my nerves down, but enjoyable as it was, the trip actually took a lot out of me, so I ended up feeling even more exhausted when I came home. Now with the Dissertation and assignments mounting up, I’m feeling the effects of a burn out.

I’ve lost quite a bit of motivation as well as the same fervor I use to have much earlier in the term. Now its just a drag and most of the people around me act that way too, so its not easy getting up in the morning and having to deal with it all day in and day out.

 

I can’t have this now, I’m graduating in 2 months time and will be off to Singapore for my internship. I need to get my work done, and I need to be motivated again! I need my mojo! I need my enthusiasm back! Come on man! Got to buck myself up! Maybe its because I haven’t had a good time to rest, and maybe I need to game a little, reignite the passion I have. Maybe…

 
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Posted by on March 29, 2011 in Story Of My Life

 

New Year and New Hopes with New Dreams

Its the beginning of the a new year and a whole new term for me. Its actually my final semester now at Taylors University, and I have plenty of things to look forward to. One bring my dissertation, I have found a very strong liking to the field of research and studies, but of course it might not be something I want to do full time of course.

Also the pace is going to pick up pretty fast now, with us starting already, the first week is as always just introduction to the classes. But even then, I can’t waste a moment longer on getting things rolling, as the Chinese New Year celebrations will be coming in soon. So we can expect lots of Chinese New Year goodies and Red Packets. Well, maybe not so much on the snacks this year as there is a steep 20% increase on  all CNY goodies.

Also lets not forget one more major event on our calenders. It is the 2 week study tour to France! We’re going in February, 2 weeks after CNY! Talk about rushed! Ha ha. At that time, it will be winter time, so we’d better back heavy and warm. This will be the second time in my life I see snow, my first was in Japan up Mt. Fuji. I can see it now, me and my friends having a nice cup of hot chocolate and some croissants at a street cafe and then a couple of rounds of local bitter as we welcome the night and take in the beautiful view of Paris, the city of lights and love.

It will be first time stepping into Europe and Paris itself. After spending so many months in my French Language class and being introduced to it, we’ll finally get to see it in person and take in the culture. Can’t wait to start delving into the food and wine, immerse myself in the amazing architectural wonders of its museums and buildings and just enjoy the weather, despite it being able to freeze my nose off. I’m not aiming on doing a lot of shopping, since I prefer travelling light, instead I will be taking tons of pictures as well as updating my blog during my time there.

And here are a list of things that have happened during my time away from the computer this past month.

1.) My big sister got married! I shall have one blog post specially for that later.

2.) Our event, the Asian Food Carnival 2010 was a success! Joy and laughter all around.

3.) I have a new room now, and my old room is officially an entertainment room. ;P

 

Thats all for now, also I was checking out my usual gamer news and blogs when I came up these two wonderful gems of blogs. The first is called Grinding Down which the author does reviews on games and on his life, like me. He has a good flair for writing and shares a strong love for gaming along with his wife. Second is The Girl Gamer. I know what you think, that it might be another female only blog or a place where girls complain about how insensitive guys are when playing Halo multi player, No. It is nothing like that. Faith, the author is actually a very cool and open minded gamer\blogger who has done articles and pieces on various gaming magazines and websites, not only that, she is a very creative artist, with each creation paying a very adorable and special homage to video game characters. So do check them out, you’ll come to love what they write alongside with my own blog.

Oh yeah, I also signed up as a member at Gamers Hideout. =D

Thats all for now people, I got class at 8.30am tomorrow. Till next time my dear readers. Goodnight.

 
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Posted by on January 5, 2011 in Story Of My Life

 

“New Game” “Press Start” “Round 1″ “Write!”

Hadoken!  Shoryuken!

Are the words I would love to hear come the time I finally start playing Marvel VS Capcom 3 when its released. Its one of the games I’m waiting, and thats cool, because of all the fighting games with its Godlike combo makers and brutal fatalities, MVC is practically the only brawler game that stuck to me since the beginning. I appreciated how the characters were comic styled and not trying too look too realistic with rather dodgy movement animations like the earlier Mortal Kombat games.

And besides, its the clash of two major comic players, Capcom and Marvel. Capcom has a team of stupendous and hard hitting fighters that have epic back stories with the skills to match any foe that comes their way, and because they have their Japanese origins, each skill set is flashy and epic with a touch of cool and Zen like posterity to their likeness. On Marvel’s side, you got all the action packed supers. Ranging from mutants to iron clad men, you have the American side of superheros that deal damage first and talk later,kind of heroes. The rugged and the refined all together.  Each one showcasing a beautiful display of colorful skills an deft finesse to their combos and breakers.

With this 5th installment of the VS Capcom series, after what has been years since the last game MVC 2. It is great news to see many of our old favorites return with an all new re skinning in 3D as well as new additions to the roster of playable fighters.  There are 40 in total with which 30 are already confirmed and revealed. For a complete list of characters, you can check it out at Wikipedia. And for screenshots as well as some gameplay videos, you can go here. As for the video showing you some of the characters in the intro movie you can see it here on Youtube. They have Amaterasu from Okami!! Thank you Capcom! =D

The visuals are BEAUTIFUL and they do not hold back on keeping each character to heart with new improvements. Ammy has many of her core skills from Okami and Ryu can do his Hadoken at various directions now, similarly Iron Man’s beam can be fired at a 45′ angle for awesome combo making. It gets even more insane now with the newer characters, anyone can have the showdone they have always dreamed off, want to see a fight between Chris and The Hulk? Done, want to see Dante take on Deadpool? Done, How about a tag team of Amaterasu and Viewtiful Joe against Dormammu? Or Wolverine agains Ryu?! Here it is!

I’m giddy as hell to get this game and I’m sure many of us in Malaysia are as well to get to unraveling the timing for executing perfect combos and learning newer strategies to take down our opponents. With online play, which they MUST have included, this will bring in a whole new world of competitive play for us here. So with the start of a new year and my final semester as well, this game will definitely be one of many amazing highlights for me this 2011!

 
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Posted by on January 4, 2011 in Game Reviews

 

2010 in review

The stats helper monkeys at WordPress.com mulled over how this blog did in 2010, and here’s a high level summary of its overall blog health:

Healthy blog!

The Blog-Health-o-Meter™ reads Wow.

Crunchy numbers

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The average container ship can carry about 4,500 containers. This blog was viewed about 21,000 times in 2010. If each view were a shipping container, your blog would have filled about 5 fully loaded ships.

 

In 2010, there were 43 new posts, not bad for the first year! There were 245 pictures uploaded, taking up a total of 43mb. That’s about 5 pictures per week.

The busiest day of the year was December 5th with 429 views. The most popular post that day was Chinese New Year is here. Gong to the Xi to the Fa Fa Chai!.

Where did they come from?

The top referring sites in 2010 were facebook.com, alphainventions.com, 74.125.67.100, search.aol.com, and babybodybuilder.blogspot.com.

Some visitors came searching, mostly for cornea, doraemon, the spy next door, bioshock 2, and dorayaki.

Attractions in 2010

These are the posts and pages that got the most views in 2010.

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Chinese New Year is here. Gong to the Xi to the Fa Fa Chai! January 2010


2

Lazy day(s). What was happening and what will happen. January 2010


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I don’t wanna be anything, other than what I’ve been trying to be lately. January 2010


5

The Kings and Queen of Comedy Asia! October 2010

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How nice of the WordPress.com team to do something like this for us. Thanks you guys, your blogging site rocks, so keep on rolling!

 
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Posted by on January 4, 2011 in Story Of My Life

 

Happy New Year 2011!

To all my dear readers throughout the time I began this blog and to all the amazing people I have met through it as well, I wish you all a very Happy New Year 2011 and a blessed start to what will be an amazing new year of opportunities, experiences and love! =D

Enjoy the fireworks with family and friends and a whole new start!

 

Welcome it with open hands, open minds and open hearts!

I raise my glass to all my dearest family members, honorable friends and to the people who have crossed paths with me in this journey we call life. Blessings to you all and to us in 2011!

 
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Posted by on January 1, 2011 in Story Of My Life

 

I told you Ceaser, here he comes now, and he’s not alone.

For my second game to review, it is the return of our Italian shadow hero. And this time he has friends of a similar background.

The story is a direct continuation from Assassins Creed 2. How direct? Well you start as Ezio right where you left him, in the hall of Minerva, right after the beat the stuffing out of the new pope. It is here we begin our journey, Ezio returns to Monterrigioni with his Uncle Mario and the Apple of Eden. He relaxes and takes the time to savor his previous victory. Only it does not last. Now this is something I like about video games, when they take something you know and are familiar and then completely wow you when they have made changes, and they don’t tell you in a book or notification, they let you play and find out yourself.

For example, I was riding on a horse with Mario back to the gates or Monterrigioni, and instinctively, I dismount at the stables, since in the last game we had to walk inside cities. Guess what? Mario continues talking and RIDES INSIDE without skipping a beat. Right there, I was like, “Wow what? You can do that now?!” And they did not stop there, there were cannons to play with and an epic horse ride through a crumbling town.

Along side that, the combat has been further improved, allowing Ezio to not only fight on horseback, he is also much much more offensive based. Three strikes on an opponent and you get him immediately with an execution, which then if you are nearby another enemy, gets you another execution right away. And this builds up, you can keep on chaining executions over and over without getting hit if you time it right. Combat also gets much more fun with the addition of many new weapons, for example we can now carry heavy arms such as longsswords and heavy maces, as well as the addition of a crossbow, which is extremely accurate. Combine this with newer execution styles, which include the use of your hidden gun, and you have a one man army.

But thats where they take it further. Later in the game, you will be tasked with rebuilding the order or Assassins in Rome. And it is here, in the run down city that was once magnificent, you shall fight citizens who are fighting their own wars with the Borgia, seeking peace and the return of power to the people. You shall then recruit them and train them as well as send them over foreign land to take up missions which are told on the Facebook page Project Legacy. Your recruits gain levels and obtain better equipment too, as a bonus, you can actually give extra training using the Facebook as well as it links to your PS3 save file, really neat.

Coming together for the ride is of course some of our very favorite characters. In fact one in particular will play a very cool and vital side mission for you. Here’s a tip, it includes war machines, which you yourself will find, use and ultimately leave in shambles after.

And with each mission completed, he’ll find time to get you better stuff. Cool and awesome devices, like this one:

No more fears of slipping up and desynchronizing! And speaking of synchronization, there is an added challenge now to all memories sections. Each section will have a rule or requirement to meet, as it is the goal for the player to get 100% synch. The standard is set because that was how Ezio actually completed it in reality. And to make things easier for replay, Desmond can review and replay any memory he wants. (Or we want.) The story is amazing, in the sense that it fits in perfectly with what has been happening so far, and the development of Rome, which gosh darn beautiful, makes it feel as though this game was part of the original AC2, and was left out only because it would make the game too big to enjoy at once. But that too has been taken to another level with the Mulitplayer section.

Story is, Abstergo has begun training their own army of Assassins, using the bleeding effect from the Animus. Thus each player will be a Abstergo agent undergoing training. There are many class types to choose from, like the Courtesan, the Barber (rather Sweeny Todd like), the Executioner, and the Engineer(Sniper). Each one is mainly cosmetic but can also be a strategic choice, because how a game works is that, based on which character the players choose, the world will be inhabited with A.I crowds who look exactly like them and move rather randomly to cause confusion to players. So if one or more players have the same skin, there will be a much tougher time finding the right mark. Tools and upgrades are awarded with consecutive levels, and points are scored based on how undetectable you manage to make your kill. There is also various bonuses in achieving a variety of kills as well as how unique you corner your kill.

All this expands the series to lengths that most other games do, but which they tend to fail in attracting and keeping interest. AC Brotherhood makes online play addictive and extremely challenging as you try kill your target while dodging the attention of your pursuers. Abilities you gain such as Morphing, Templar Vision and Hidden Guns, make your methods varied and unique. You can play silent and deadly or go right out for as many kills as you can. And the better your score, you’ll take the lead, which will have even more pursuers on your tail as you try ever so hard to survive the round.

I am very satisfied with what this game has given me to experience and  Ubisoft is acing it with every release of the series. Rome is rich and lush with detail and huge in size. As you rebuild it piece by piece, you start to see the love the creators have put into each and every detail. The Colosseum is an epic of place to explore and the citadel to the Castello is quite a sight.

For anyone who loves this series, this is a must have in your library, and you will love the game and how it has grown to what it is from its very grassroot of the first Assassin’s Creed. The ending will grip you, and the puzzles from Subject 16 are present with even newer revelations to be made. I’ve already finished it, and am still replaying the missions for 100%. There are some nice bonuses if you do. Anyone who loves an epic, will certainly find this game to be the perfect thing to whet their cravings. See the story of Ezio unfold and see Desmond in the year 2012 uncover a secret that has been lost to humanity for so long. Viva de Assassino!

 
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Posted by on December 21, 2010 in Game Reviews

 
 
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